I hate writer’s block. Especially when it seems to be selective writer’s block, only specifically blocking the one thing I really, really, really need to be working on right now. And I was on such a roll this morning before I had to stop to go to my first class. Why can’t I get back there now? Arrrgh!
So I’m blogging. Because that helps with writer’s block, right? Right? Well, at least it’s an attempt. It’s better than reading Veronica Mars recaps on Television Without Pity. Not that I’m, you know, doing that at the moment or anything. Though it would be research for when Justin trades me his DVDs of the first two Veronica Mars seasons for the Heroes Season One DVDs I just finished. (I still like Sylar the best, except for perhaps Mr. Muggles. Is this wrong?)
Ok, moving on… I had a good Easter break. I dug the vegetable garden and planted sweet peas and lilies of the valley. Hopefully the seeds haven’t frozen in the ground by now, what with all the random snowflakes flying around, but they’re cold-weather plants, so I think they can take it. I think. It was one of the happiest times of the last couple months digging out in the garden under the wide, open sky. I forget, during those months when I don’t have access to the ground, how much being outside helping things grow fills me up inside. I don’t know how people could live in urban concrete jungles with no access to growing things. I couldn’t do it. I think part of me would die inside.
The Easter Vigil was fun. I wore my new peep-toe shoes (Liv: “Peep! Peep!”), and got to sit next to Eric, who is one of my favorite relatives ever. (No, really, ever.) We can’t sit next to each other in church too often. We find the same offbeat things utterly hilarious, and can’t help pointing them out to one another. It makes for a very distracting sort of Mass. The Easter Vigil always starts with the lighting of the new fire, followed by the candlelight procession into the church. After the Easter proclamation, everyone blows out their candles and sits down to listen to the Bible readings. There are a lot of them since this is the Easter Vigil. Eric was fidgeting with his candle during the readings, peeling layers of wax off of it, then breaking it into segments and folding it into a figure 8 which then got reinserted into the paper cuff that’s supposed to catch the wax. This meant that when the time came to relight the candles later in the Vigil, his candle had two ends we could light. So we did, giggling silently as we watched them burn down extra quickly. Then I had to recite him the oh, so apropos Edna St. Vincent Millay poem (“My candle burns at both ends,/ It will not last the night./ But ah, my foes, and oh, my friends,/ It gives a lovely light.”) That was pretty funny too.
The other fun thing was that I took Liv home with me for Easter dinner. I love watching her hang out with my family, especially the guys in my family. The thing is that she’s really, really beautiful. However, she doesn’t see her own beauty, particularly since she pays little to no attention to her looks whatsoever. In her book, her blond sister is the beautiful one in the family, and Liv is the tomboy that nobody looks at twice. Plus, she grew up rough-housing with two little brothers, so she doesn’t quite understand how the same behavior that’s really annoying in an older sister could be, well, really encouraging in a cute young woman sortof your own age. It’s a kind of innocence. Mikey is still young enough that they can play together without worries (plus he’s the one she trusts enough to carry her from my car into the house), but it was interesting watching Larry, my oldest brother. He had just gotten his hair buzzed really short, so she had to rub it (she rubs her little brothers heads when they’ve just gotten a buzz cut). It was awesome watching his brain melt and dribble out of his skull right there in my aunt’s living room.
And the other good part about Easter? I got to talk to Joe. When I was getting ready to leave my aunt’s house I saw that I’d missed a couple of calls, one from Ella, and one from a number I didn’t recognize. I didn’t really think it was him, but part of me hoped (I’ve been missing him a lot, and it had been over a month since I got his last letter). So I listened to my messages right then and there. One of them was from him, telling me that he’s in New Orleans and giving me a number where I’ll be able to contact him from now until May. Do you know how long it’s been since I had a phone number I could dial and connect with Joe any old time I wanted? Years. I mean, first he was in Afghanistan, then world traveling, then sharing a phone with the whole Jesuit novitiate. It’s been a long time. I got myself and Liv home as quickly as I could, went directly up to my room and called 14. We talked a long time, the first time I think we’ve been able to talk ourselves out since he left town a year ago. Then last night I called him again, just because I could.
Now I’m trying to finish up school projects, clean the house to make a good impression of the potential roommate who might come visiting this weekend while I’m gone, and getting ready to leave for Boston. Yup, friends, it’s time for the Boston Tea Party! I’ve been waiting for this since I came home from my first Tea Party last year. I’m so excited and nervous and stressed thinking of all the things that have to happen between now and when I fly out of Columbus on Thursday. Thank goodness this year I have a room in the actual hotel, and if all goes well I’ll actually make it out for Thursday night instead of missing my flight like last year. I’m also registered to compete in the West Coast Newcomers Jack & Jill. Also, John Lindo owes me two dances.
Eeek! Just thinking about it makes me nervous. Breathe, Bernadette, breathe. Ok. I’m going to take another stab at that paper writing, and if that doesn’t work, I’m doing laundry.
Jenn just messaged me that K-Mart is selling roses for cheap! Maybe I’ll have my rose garden after all!